Ron Goldman, 18 Years Later – A personal post from: “Kim Goldman”

This article was viewed 20,079 times

Ron Goldman

Thinking of Ron Goldman – 18 years later –

I wanted to share a post from a high school friend who lost her brother in one of the most horrific murders of our time. Ron Goldman was not just the other victim that fateful night. He was a brother, a Son and a friend to many – I knew Ron in High School, but not closely. However,  reading this today I was so touched and wanted to share it with more –

Thank you Kim, for letting me share this –

Life

Posted  June 12, 2012

I sat down tonight, wanting to write  some prolific statement about this years observation of my brother’s horrific murder.  But all I did was get stuck on the number 18.  It plays over and over again in my head.  The number has always carried such weight.  Growing up in a Jewish home, there is a lot of hype around 18.

You see, mystical tradition assigns numeric value to the letters in the Hebrew alphabet and all of the letters in the word Chai (meaning “life”) add up to 18.  As a result, the Jews deemed that number lucky.  So I followed in this long-standing tradition and it felt wonderful.

I remember the first phone number that Ron and I shared, 634-1818.  I was over the moon with my good fortune to land that number!  And the fortune continued, as I opened up envelope after envelope from my Bat-Mitzvah:  $18, $18, $36 and so on – I was rolling in the dough and the luck … the number 18 had been good to me.  And so into my life I went, letting out whispers of glee, every time an 18 showed up somewhere along the way.

But this year – 18 just sucks.

Today marks 18 years that my best friend, my brother was stabbed to death.  18 years ago, the course of my life was changed in a nano-second; everything I ever knew and relied on, would be different forever.  18 years have passed since my brother took his last breath.  18 years since I have heard his voice and felt his hug.  18 years.

Today, 18 just sucks.

But the Chai.  The Chai means “life”.  And in my life today, I am surrounded by love, and kindness and compassion.  I have a child that has filled my heart and soul so deeply with pride and pure joy.  I have friends and family that inspire and comfort me.  I have a father, who is the most incredible, loyal and wonderful human being a child could wish for.  And even though I will always have a hole in my heart from the tragic and sudden loss of my big brother, my heart is fuller with all the gifts I have been given.


I still wear Ron’s necklace, the one donning his Ankh (which in the Egyptian culture also means “life”); having it with me, reminds me daily of how he lived with such passion, honor and dignity.  And in the 18 years since his death, I have done all I can to cherish his memory and live my life with his same commitment.

My dear sweet brother Ron, not a day has gone by that I don’t think of you, see your face in my mind and wish that you were here.  No words can ever describe the pain I feel and the longing I have for you.  You have not been forgotten.

Missing You Now, Loving you Always,

Squirt

 

Please see more from: KIM GOLDMAN  {http://www.kimberlygoldman.com/} You will be able to find Facebook & Twitter links on her page.

Share and Enjoy:
  • Digg
  • StumbleUpon
  • del.icio.us
  • Facebook
  • Twitter
  • Google Bookmarks
  • Google Buzz
  • Reddit
  • Technorati
Troy Tarr

About Troy Tarr

A former Firefighter in the Chicago area, who took a leap of faith in 1996 & jumped into the Wall Street world. I have worked for three of the large institutional Investment banks on Wall St in senior leadership & executive positions. I got caught in the recession & lost it all - ALL!! Now, I do some consulting work and look for a full time gig. I have equity in The News Burner, write, edit and help manage the site. I have strong passions for Music, Cooking, & Loving Life.... You have encountered a Type A, driven, passionate, fun, giving individual, who just wants to be happy and see everyone else happy too - ENJOY - @TtarrNewsBurner (Twitter) - NEWS BURNER (Facebook)

, , , , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

2 Responses to Ron Goldman, 18 Years Later – A personal post from: “Kim Goldman”

  1. Sherlyn August 24, 2012 at 8:30 pm #

    Thanks for ones marvelous posting! I quite enjoyed reading it, you could
    be a great author. I will remember to bookmark your blog and may come back
    in the future. I want to encourage continue your great work, have a
    nice morning!

  2. http://www.thingstodoinbrooklyn.net/ September 18, 2012 at 5:20 am #

    Attractive section of content. I just stumbled upon your site and in accession capital to assert that I acquire
    actually enjoyed account your blog posts. Anyway I will be subscribing to your feeds and
    even I achievement you access consistently fast.